A MARRIAGE IN TURMOIL

Where do I begin? I guess when I was just a young buck 
of nineteen freshly out of high school on his way to 
college. Like a lot of kids at that time I guess I 
thought I was hot stuff. I dated a lot and tried to see 
how many pairs of panties I could get into. God, I 
loved the challenge. Will she or won't she? That is the 
question. I had as many wills as I did will nots. 

I started college but like most young guys at that time 
I dropped out eventually. My mind was on the pussy 
challenge, not studying. I did learn enough in college 
to land some good jobs.

I was in sales which put me in a lot of homes. Damn, I 
like that. Most places I stopped were just for business 
and I took care of it, being one of the top salesmen. 
Then there were the pussy stops. That's when you could 
smell it upon entering a residence. The woman, usually 
alone, dressed in sexy clothes or robes and nightgowns. 
In these cases I usually got the sale quickly and then 
did what comes natural with a young buck and a lonely 
or horny woman of any age.

The hardest thing to judge was determining if the woman 
was flirting or wanted sex. I didn't want to lose my 
job for a piece of ass when there was so much out 
there. I usually let the ladies take the lead. If they 
brought up sex or made the first move I jumped their 
bones. I probably passed up a lot of pussy just to be 
on the safe side.

I eventually met a really nice gal when I was doing a 
little shopping at the mall. She was just a sweet 
little thing standing a little over five feet tall, a 
big bubbly smile and big boobs. As she waited on me I 
used my charm and tried to get a date. After about the 
tenth time coming in the store she agreed to go out 
with me. I was really falling for this girl. I was just 
hoping she was doing the same.

I still kept my sales job while dating Nancy. We got 
along great together and eventually made love. Yes, it 
was love. It was so much different than the sex I was 
used to. I wanted to please this woman, not just 
myself. After about ten months of dating, she became 
pregnant. She was on birth control but I guess we were 
that one in ninety-nine chance.

In her fourth month of pregnancy we got married. 
Looking back I guess I wasn't ready to be married. I 
loved Nancy, I really did, but I was twenty and pretty 
immature. I thought with my dick. I had sex with a few 
gals after getting married just because I could. It was 
different from the loving sex I had with Nancy. More 
than anything I still believe it was the chase. Just to 
say I was able to get into a girl's pants and then do 
it.

I didn't brag about it to anyone but I believe people 
knew. I was a married guy with a kid on the way. I know 
people want to call me a bastard, prick, lowlife, and 
all the other adjectives. I deserve to be called them 
all. I know that now but then it was just trying to get 
into any woman's panties. I was an immature kid. 

One day Nancy found out I banged one of the girls at 
the office. She cried and cried and we talked about it. 
She thought about divorcing me and probably should 
have. She eventually forgave me. I really began feeling 
bad about the affair. For some reason at twenty years 
old I didn't think about my actions until it was too 
late. Then after I found out what it did to my loving 
wife, it tore me apart. I vowed never to cheat on her 
again if she would forgive me. 

I kept that promise and tried to be a good husband. The 
baby was born, a son we named Jacob. We were now a 
family. We had our problems like any family. We could 
always use more money. We didn't agree on what to buy. 
Like any young couple we had a big difference of 
opinions. But we were able to work them out. 

One thing was for sure and that was that after my 
affairs my love grew for Nancy. I might not have always 
showed it but it was there. I would die for that woman. 
Making love to her was fantastic. I believe it was 
because of the effort both of us put into it. I would 
do anything to make her climax. To this day, hers is 
the only pussy I ever ate. I loved sticking my tongue 
deep into her pussy until she climaxed.

We even tried anal sex about three times. It wasn't all 
it was hiked up to be. Her ass was so tight it hurt my 
dick. I used some KY jelly so I could at least get the 
head in. It did feel good shooting a load in her ass 
though. She preferred good old-fashioned pussy sex. 
Didn't make any difference who was on top or if I got 
her from behind, it was all good. She didn't like to 
give head. She tried it a few times but I could tell 
she hated it. I wasn't going to make her do it when she 
didn't received pleasure from it. I did continue to eat 
her out. I know it made her feel great.

A couple of years later we had another son, David. We 
couldn't have been happier. We were truly a family. 
Probably as normal as they come. 

I always wanted to own my own business. To be able to 
control my own destiny. Nancy and I talked and talked 
about it. Money was kind of tight with having the two 
boys and all the other expenses. We finally found a 
small hardware store. We bought it on land contract and 
made the business a success. Not a lot of money but 
enough to survive. I was really happy to have fulfilled 
that dream of having my own business. A wonderful wife 
and two sons. Life was good.

Nancy didn't lose all her weight after the second baby. 
She always talked down about herself. I told her she 
looked fine. I loved her heavy, skinny, it didn't make 
any difference to me. Of course she never really 
believed me but it was true. When I looked at her I 
didn't think about her weight. Granted that a beautiful 
sculptured body looks great but I loved Nancy 
regardless of the weight factor. Besides she was a 
little overweight, not obese. Hell, I was thirty pounds 
overweight myself. She would go on diet after diet. 
Always trying something to take the weight off.

We would argue about it over and over again. She always 
ended the arguments by throwing the affair up at me 
even though it was years and years earlier. I guess 
even though she said she forgave me deep down the 
negative feelings were still there.

She worked part time in her job while the boys were 
growing up. After the boys were in high school, she 
took a promotion in her job. She was a department 
manager and would make a lot more money. She decided to 
get back on the diet kick and also joined a health club 
for women. I didn't mind this since it was an all woman 
exercise place. Whenever a woman joins a health club 
and the husband doesn't, it seems to lead to affairs.

I was surprised she stayed with it. She began to lose 
weight and was feeling good about herself. That made me 
feel good. I liked her to be happy and if being thinner 
made her happy then I was happy. Our sex life started 
to rear up again. Like most married couples it waned 
for a few years while being busy with the family. 
Whenever we made love it was good. I guess after so 
many years of marriage you just sort of take the sex 
for granted. Sometimes we might go as much as two 
months without having sex. But then when we made love 
it was great.

She liked her job and new found body. She just seemed 
so much happier. Then it happened. She came home and 
asked if I would mind if she went out with her friends. 
I said of course not, you've been going out with them 
for years. She mentioned they were having a girl's 
night out on Saturday and wanted to make sure I didn't 
have a problem with it. This just seemed strange. I 
knew something was bothering her. So I asked her what 
the problem was.

She just said she was probably going through a 
menopause phase and her mood swings were probably 
getting to her. I hugged her and said I loved her and I 
would always be here for her. She just hugged me back. 
I felt her shudder a little. I knew we had a problem 
but it wasn't the right time to face it. I would just 
have to think about it and decide how to approach her. 

On Saturday I watched to see how she dressed to go out 
with the girls. She just wore a pair of black slacks 
and a nice blouse. She looked good but to me she always 
looked good and I often told her so.

She told me where they were expecting to go in case I 
needed her for anything. Then her friend Pam picked her 
up and they left. It was bothering me. I had to know 
what was happening to her. I waited a few minutes and 
headed out myself. I really didn't want to spy on her 
because I always trusted her. There just seemed to be 
something wrong with her demeanor. I had to find out 
what it was.

Nancy and her friends went to a combination dance hall-
lounge-night club. It was really big. It was easy to 
get lost in the crowd. I went up to the second floor on 
kind of a balcony where I could over see the lower 
level. I was able to spot Nancy and her girlfriends 
sitting together in two of the half round booths. They 
seemed to be having a good time. Maybe I was wrong, 
maybe this wasn't part of the problem. I ordered a 
drink and just kind of watched Nancy. I felt bad being 
there but I needed to know for my own well being.

Nancy's friends were a mixture of married, single and 
divorced women. Most I have met at one time or another. 
There were a few there that I didn't recognize. I 
figured she met them at the health club. After about a 
half hour a few guys came over and asked some of the 
girls to dance. 

The first couple of times Nancy shook her head ‘no' but 
after she had a few drinks she agreed to dance a 
little. I really didn't have a big problem with her 
dancing but because of the possible problem she might 
be having, it made me nervous.

She was starting to spend more and more time on the 
dance floor. I didn't recognize any of the guys. They 
could have been from work or just strangers out for a 
good time. I decided to stay for a little while longer 
to see what was going on. She started to dance a few 
slow songs with one guy and he was holding her close. 

I saw him slide his hands down to her ass and pull her 
toward him. She just reached back and gently pushed his 
hands away. He did it a number of times and she 
continued to just push it away. The last time he 
grabbed her ass she left it there awhile longer before 
pushing it away. Then I saw him reach up and touch her 
breast. He held it there a few seconds and then she 
again pushed his hand away.

It was bothering me. Should I say or do something? 
Should I confront her in some way? She wasn't supposed 
to know I was even here. I was wondering if this went 
on before or maybe she just didn't want to make a 
scene. I just didn't know. It wasn't like her to do 
nothing about it After the song ended she went back and 
sat with her friends. I was too far away to hear any 
conversations but some of the girls were laughing or 
smiling. It could have been about anything.

A few minutes later the girls were finishing their 
drinks and were getting ready to leave. They were 
saying goodbye to the other girls and the guys. The guy 
Nancy was dancing with reached over and gave her a 
light goodbye kiss. Nothing special, just a light kiss, 
but it really bothered me. Was I reading more into this 
than I should have? I know I will never forget it no 
matter how innocent it was.

I got up quickly and left out the back door, got into 
my car and headed home. The boys were already in their 
room watching TV. I just said hi to them and went and 
made myself a drink. I already had liquor on my breath 
and figured it would be a good cover. 

Nancy arrived within ten minutes and I greeted her. I 
asked her if she had a good time and she said she did 
but she seemed a bit nervous. I looked her in the eyes 
and said, "Nancy, do we need to talk?"

To the best of my knowledge Nancy has never lied to me. 
I'm sure she has secrets like everyone else but I have 
never caught her in a bold lie. I could see tears form 
in the corner of her eyes. She looked at me and said, 
"Jim, I have a problem and I don't know what to do." 
and she started crying. 

I held her close and hugged her and I asked her if it 
had anything to do with her girl's night out?

She said, "Yes! No! Maybe... I don't know? Let's sit 
down, I think we need to talk."

I said, "Nancy, tell me why you are so upset. Start 
with this evening, what happened?" I wanted her to tell 
me about tonight because I saw what was happening and 
could gauge her truthfulness.

"Well," she said, "We arrived at the club and were 
drinking. I started dancing with a few guys. One in 
particular. He was touching my butt and breasts and I 
should have slapped him but didn't. I let him feel me 
up and didn't stop him. I pushed his hands away and 
when he put them back I really didn't get mad."

"Nancy, why didn't you stop him? Push him away or 
something." 

She was crying lightly and said, "I liked it, Jim. I 
wanted him to touch me. I'm so sorry, I can't get these 
feeling out of my system. It's making me crazy."

"Was this the first time it ever happened, Nancy?"

She started crying again and said, "No, this has been 
happening the last couple of months and I can't shake 
it. I want to be touched. I want men to want me."

"MY God, Nancy, have you been having affairs? Have you 
been fucking other men? Have you been cheating on me?"

She was crying and answering me at the same time, 
saying, "God, no, Jim, I haven't ever cheated on you. I 
have never had another man. Never but as of late I have 
let men touch me. I was hoping it was just a short 
phase I was going through and you would never find out. 
I just can't hide it anymore. It's tearing me up 
inside. I can't live like this. I had to tell you. Jim, 
I love you so much but I feel like I missed something. 
You're the only man I've been with. I know you have had 
other women."

"Stop right there, Nancy. You have thrown that affair 
up to me for the last 15 years. You are not going to 
use it against me now to have an affair. Is that what 
you want, Nancy? My permission to cheat on me, to 
cuckold me, to make a wimp of me? It isn't going to 
happen Nancy. I love you with all my heart. I always 
will but you will not make a fool of me just so you can 
have some strange fucks. Someone to compare me to."

"Well, Nancy, is that what you want? A chance to have 
your little flings and then come back home to me after 
your pussy gets satisfied?"

Nancy replied, "I don't know Jim, I just don't know" as 
she was crying.

I had tears in my eyes as I told Nancy that she was 
right. Neither of us could live like this. We both 
needed time to think. I told her I was going to 
separate from her for approximately two months. She 
could live in the house with our sons. I would live in 
the apartment above my hardware store.

She said, "Jim, I love you. I don't want you to go. I'm 
just all mixed up. Please don't leave me."

"Two months, Nancy, two months to decide if you want 
your freedom and new found sex libido or if you want to 
stay married to me. I have no idea what you are going 
to do but if you decide to be a fuck slut for anyone 
I'll apply for a divorce immediately. These two months 
are for you to decide what you really want, not to see 
how many affairs you can get in. I will just take it ‘A 
day at a time' and suggest you do the same."

"Since tomorrow is Sunday I'll gather my personal 
things and take them to the apartment. I'll also talk 
to the boys in the morning."

The next morning I told Jacob and David to come into 
the living room. I think they heard some of the 
conversation from their room the night before. They sat 
down as I explained that their mother and I were having 
some marital difficulties and that I would be living 
above the store till we got things straightened out. I 
explained that this was not their doing but was a 
problem between their mother and I. Nancy was standing 
behind them with tears in her eyes but not saying a 
word.

I explained to them that we both loved them very much 
and that they could talk to either of us at any time. I 
would still attend their school events. Nothing has 
changed other than I wouldn't be living at the house. 
No matter what the future brings they will always have 
a roof over their heads and won't have to worry about 
moving and losing their friends. 

They wanted to know more but I told them that was all I 
could tell them for now. I said that their mother and I 
had some major problems to work out. We would know 
within two months what the future holds.

My boys were sad as they helped me take my personal 
stuff to the apartment above the store. I told them 
everything would be alright and for them to help their 
mother as much as possible. She needed their love if we 
were to stay a family. I instructed them to not ask her 
questions about the separation and help her around the 
house. They were good boys and I knew they would do 
what they could. I was only a mile away if they needed 
me.

Nancy needed time to work things out. I was in a world 
of turmoil myself. What if I lose her? My life was 
beginning to turn to shit. What could I do? What could 
I do? I guess it was all up to Nancy now.

***

I have some major problems to overcome. I have a wife 
who has never really cheated on me that I know of and I 
believe her. She stuck with me through my bad boy days 
and kept our marriage together. To the best of my 
knowledge she has always told me the truth. Even though 
the last truth she told me could end our marriage. 

I truly love her and don't want to lose her. I'm not a 
wimp and never will be. I am willing to fight for her 
but have no idea of what to do. This is the biggest 
decision she will ever make in her life. To have an 
affair or save her marriage. I will not let her do 
both.

I moved into my apartment above the store. It was 
lonely there. I missed Nancy so much. I was trying to 
give Nancy space to make her decision. I spent as much 
time in the store as possible just to keep myself busy. 
Business was really picking up and I had a hard time 
keeping up with all the damn paper work. I liked the 
sales part but despised the paperwork. I decided I 
would have to hire someone to take over the bookkeeping 
soon. I put an ad in the paper for an office person 
with a background in business. I would interview people 
in the coming weeks.

My sons stopped by about every other day to help me put 
up stock and make deliveries. I only had two full time 
employees beside myself working there. I asked the boys 
about their mother and how she was doing. They told me 
she cried about every night and was really down. They 
said she finally made an appointment to see a doctor. 

About two weeks after I moved out, I was in my office 
doing paper work when Pam came walking in. Pam was 
Nancy's best friend since childhood. If anyone knew 
Nancy better than me it was Pam. She has been divorced 
for a couple of years but she and Nancy were closer 
than sisters. There is very little that they didn't 
share.

Pam walked up to me and just blurted out, "You stupid 
son of a bitch, what in the hell is wrong with you? How 
could you do this to Nancy?"

I said, "Hold on there, Pam. You don't know. . . ." 
Then she cut me off.

"No, you hold on, you stupid bastard. Nancy loves you. 
She has always loved you. She is having problems and 
she came to you with them., the only person she loves 
and what the hell did you do? You moved out on her. How 
stupid can you be? Instead of helping her, you throw 
her to the wolves. I'm so mad at you I could kill you."

"But, Pam," I said, "she doesn't know what she wants. I 
can't just let her have affairs. I'm giving her time to 
work it out, to come to a decision."

"You idiot, she needs love and companionship. She's 
confused and vulnerable right now. Can't you see what 
you did? Instead of helping her, loving her and caring 
for her, you threw her to the pigs. God, I just can't 
believe you were that stupid to walk out on her. The 
guys at the store are taking bets on who she will go 
with. They can all see how vulnerable she is. The one 
person she loves turns his back on her and says work it 
out yourself. Jim, you better get your head out of your 
ass if you expect to save her."

I was stunned to say the least. I thought I did the 
right thing but now after listening to Pam I think I 
may have been wrong. I did tell Nancy I'd always be 
there for her. Then I did walk out. Damn, Pam was 
right, what a stupid ass I am.

I looked at Pam and said, "What should I do? I'm lost. 
I just don't know what to do to help her. You know I've 
always loved her more then life itself. You're her best 
friend. Didn't you see this coming?"

Pam replied, "Nancy and I have been talking about it 
for months. Nancy could be going through some kind of 
change or something. All women are different in their 
mood swings. Since Nancy joined the weight class she 
has been around other women who might have influenced 
her in some way. Made her think differently. Then after 
her losing fifty pounds other men began to notice her 
more and complimented her on her looks."

The last thing Pam told me before leaving was to make 
sure that I was at Ramon's Restaurant Friday at 9:00pm. 
I could either take Nancy home or kiss her goodbye.

I was in shock. "What the hell did that mean? What are 
you talking about, Pam? What's going on?"

She replied, "The bosses are having a business meeting 
Friday at 7:00pm. All middle managers are required to 
be there. After the meeting there will be dinner and 
cocktails. It was for management employees only, no 
spouses. The word out is a couple of managers are going 
to get Nancy drunk and try and seduce her. I'm not 
allowed to go because I'm not in management. So there 
will be no-one there to protect Nancy. They also kind 
of hinted it's a dressy affair. I think you can guess 
why."

"Doesn't Nancy know about this, Pam?"

"Yes, but she is part of management and is required to 
go. She said she would watch her drinking and try to 
stay out of trouble."

"Pam, thank you for being such a good friend to Nancy. 
I'll guarantee you one thing. Someone will be there to 
protect Nancy Friday at 9:00pm. It will be her stupid 
idiotic husband who doesn't deserve her. No spouses, my 
ass! This husband will be there."

***

Nancy Speaks:

I met Jim when we were just teenagers. I was working at 
the store in the mall when he came in. He kept trying 
to put the make on me. It was kind of funny. He would 
come back day after day trying to get me to go out. 
Then one day I just decided to say yes. He looked at me 
as though something was wrong since I had turned him 
down so often.

"Do you really mean it? Are you really going out with 
me?" as he smiled.

"Yes, Jim, I'll go out with you," I said, "but no funny 
business."

We started dating regularly. We started making out. He 
would kiss me and I started letting him fondle me 
outside of my clothes. I was falling head over heels 
for him but never wanted to show it. After a few months 
he started rubbing my breasts inside my clothes. I knew 
we were going to be getting intimate so I made an 
appointment at the doctors to get some birth control 
pills.

I had taken them for about three days when Jim asked me 
out to the beach. I wore my two piece bathing suit. It 
was getting late and the beach was almost empty. I can 
remember it as though it was yesterday. It was when I 
lost my virginity to Jim.

We were lying on the beach on our blanket when he 
started kissing me. Then he put his hands under my 
bathing suit top and started rubbing my breasts. He 
pulled my top up and exposed my breasts. He took my 
nipples in his mouth and started sucking on them. I was 
becoming hot and pulled his head down against my 
breasts. As I was doing that he slid his hand down into 
by bathing suit bottom and grabbed my pussy mound in 
his hand. I had never allowed any man in my pants. This 
was a first for me.

He started rubbing my mound and then slid a finger into 
me. I started breathing hard. I have never felt this 
way before. I knew I was going to let him have me. He 
slowly slid my suit bottom off me and I figured he was 
going to mount me but he didn't. Instead he got between 
my legs and buried his face into my mound. It felt so 
good. He then had me spread my pussy lips as he drove 
his tongue deep into me. That is probably why I love 
him going down on me so much. That was the first sex I 
ever had.

I was holding his head hard against my vagina. It felt 
so good. Than he got up on his knees and place the head 
of his cock against my pussy. He slowly pushed the head 
in till he felt resistance. I knew it was my hymen. 

He looked at me as I closed my eyes and he pushed in 
hard breaking my hymen and taking my virginity. I 
screamed out load ‘AAAHHH' then he started a slow 
methodic motion in and out, in and out. I then felt my 
first orgasm coming as I screamed out again, only this 
time in pleasure.

Jim started pumping harder and harder as I was coming 
and then spewed his love juices deep inside my pussy. 
He pulled his soft cock out of me and pulled his suit 
back up. I had tears in my eyes. He asked me what the 
matter was. I told him I was worried that after he got 
what he wanted he wouldn't still love me tomorrow.

He said, "I will always love you, Nancy. I will always 
be there for you." 

From that day forward we made love almost every time we 
were together. I missed two of my periods in a row and 
went to see the doctor. I told him maybe it was the 
birth control pills I was taking.

The doctor looked at me and said, "Nancy, you're 
pregnant."

I said, "But, Doctor, I'm on birth control."

He told me either I started it too late or I was that 
one in a hundred that got pregnant regardless of the 
pill. I left his office in a daze.

I went to see Jim and he could see I was upset. He 
asked me, "What is the problem?"

I had tears in my eyes and said, "I'm pregnant."

He looked at me and said, "I thought you were on the 
pill?"

I told him, "I was but I got pregnant anyway. I'm going 
to keep the baby regardless if you want anything to do 
with me and the baby. I love you but would never trap 
you."

Jim then got down on one knee, looked at me and said, 
"Nancy, will you marry me? I promise I'll always be 
there for you and the baby."

Of course I said, "Yes" and that's how our life 
together began many years ago.

In the last couple of months I have had a few life 
changing events. Small in nature, but still life 
changing. I got a promotion at work. More money, more 
prestige, I became one of the bosses, part of middle 
management.

My sons were at an age where I wasn't needed quite as 
much which gave me more independence. I started working 
out at a health club to lose weight. I was actually 
succeeding. I had lost fifty pounds and felt much 
better about myself.

Jim, my husband, said it never made any difference what 
I weighed to him. He was my husband and loved me, so he 
was looking through rose colored glasses. What else 
could he say? Other men noticed me more and more. I was 
always being complimented which of course made me feel 
good. I didn't want an affair with these men but it was 
nice to be complimented so often.

At the health club I heard different women talk about 
their sex lives. How men came on to them. How they 
would tease the men so they would get more attention. 
Some women would compare the men they had sex with. The 
penis size and shape, what the men would do just to get 
in their pants. How many orgasms they had. It was just 
woman talk but it does make you think.

Looking back on the conversations I noticed that these 
women talked about sex, not love. Not about 
relationships and husbands and family. They just talked 
about sex. When they asked me about my sex life I just 
smiled. My sex life wasn't a big ball of orgasms, 
multiple partners or any type of group relationships. 

It was a loving sexual communication between husband 
and wife. Not always gentle but a meeting of two minds 
and two bodies molded into one. A lasting relationship 
that went far beyond the fuck and suck that these women 
talked about. As we said in our marriage vows, to have 
and to hold, during good times and bad, to cherish and 
love, to be honest and true to each other till death do 
us part. I did my best to live by those vows.

Pam and I talked a lot. She knew I truly loved Jim even 
with his old bad habits. She is a true friend. She 
helped me understand, even when Jim turned his back on 
me. He just didn't understand what I was going through. 
Pam and I talked about my life over and over again. She 
was the one who suggested I see a doctor. She even 
suggested a shrink but I told her Jim wouldn't pay out 
that kind of money just to tell a stranger your 
problems.

When we had our girls' night out Pam told me in private 
to watch what I was doing. I was giving in a little too 
much and might regret it later. 

I told her, "The girls at the health club say that they 
give in a little to get more attention."

Pam just looked at me and said, "Think about it, Nancy. 
Is attention from strange men really what you want?" 

I knew she was right but it felt good to be admired. I 
let some men touch me just outside my clothes so I 
could get more attention. I promised myself I wouldn't 
go any further. After about two months of this type of 
living, it began to get to me. Men would whisper in my 
ears how much they wanted me. The things they would do 
to me.

I told them, "No, I would never cheat on my husband." I 
made the mistake of telling one guy at work that just 
because my husband cheated on me doesn't mean I would 
cheat on him.

I often wondered what it would be like with someone 
else. Jim was my only lover and as far as I know he was 
great. I had nothing to compare him to but he made me 
feel so good. I was never obsessed with sex like you 
read in the stories. But I did have times I wanted it. 
Jim could be gentle or he could be rough but it seemed 
he always put me first.

Hey, guys, a big flash for all of you. Women have 
fantasies too. Yes, we do. Everyone has fantasies but 
the problem is when a person wants to live them out. If 
anyone tells you they don't have fantasies, then they 
are probably lying.

I started getting hot flashes or something, I was 
having mood swings and didn't think Jim paid enough 
attention to me. I was thinking all kinds of crazy 
things, some of them even sexual. It didn't make me 
feel good. It scared the hell out of me. I needed help. 
I didn't know what was happening to me. I felt I was 
going crazy. I couldn't overcome these fantasies in my 
mind. 

That's when I finally decided to tell Jim. I needed his 
hugs and kisses, his warmth and understanding that he 
always gave me. That safety net he seemed to have, a 
blanket of comfort and protection.

Instead he gave me an ultimatum. If I had an affair, he 
was going to divorce me. Then he told me he was moving 
out and I had two months to make a decision. I was 
devastated, I had no idea where to turn. If it wasn't 
for Pam standing with me those first couple of weeks 
after Jim left, I have no idea where I would be today.

Pam is divorced. She caught her husband in bed with 
another man one day when she came home early from work. 
She couldn't believe it. Her husband sucking another 
guy's cock in her bed. She ran to the end table and 
grabbed a gun and pointed it at both of them. She said 
she never saw two cocks get so soft so quick. She told 
me it took every ounce of energy she had not to pull 
the trigger. 

They were married for seven years and she said she 
didn't have a clue that he was bi-sexual. They were 
divorced soon after. She dates again but is very 
suspicious of who she goes out with. She is now dating 
a guy named Ray whose wife left him for another man 
about three years ago. They seem to be a good couple 
and I sure hope they succeed. Pam deserves a better 
life. She is one fantastic friend and a lady you can 
trust.

I made an appointment to see a doctor on Wednesday. I 
had a meeting Friday and wanted to try and have my 
senses. When I went in to see the doctor, a woman, she 
wanted to just talk to me for a few minutes first. 

I told her about my mood swings, the constant crying, 
my out of control hormones. Then the talk got more 
serious. I told her about the sexual side, my husband's 
ultimatum, and even about a possible affair.

She smiled at me and told me I should have come to see 
her months ago. If I would have I probably wouldn't 
have all these problems facing me. She took me off my 
birth control pills and put me on some type of hormone-
relaxer. It should help control the mood swings. 
Because of the weight loss I no longer needed to take 
some of the pills I was taking. She said everything was 
clashing in my body. I was starting the change of life 
but it would be a number of years before it would be 
over.

Then she looked at me seriously and said, "What you 
told me about your husband is a bit sad. He should have 
stood with you. I see too many loving couples get 
divorces just because they don't understand. Men will 
always go after good looking women. You as a wife and 
mother have to understand that all they want is the 
sex. There is no lasting relationship for a lot of 
these men. It sounds like you and your husband need 
another talk. I think when he learns the facts that he 
will be right there with you."

Then she mentioned that if I had any problems to call 
her immediately otherwise she would see me in two 
months. I actually cried after talking to her. She just 
hugged me and said, "Everything will work out for you."

Now if I could get past this stupid meeting Friday, 
maybe I could see Jim Saturday and have our little 
talk. I sure missed him, the lug head. 

***

Back to Jim:

I was a mess after Pam left. God, how could I do this 
to Nancy? I tried to call her but the boys said she was 
at the doctors. Well, at least that was a start. I just 
wish I could talk to her.
I called her at work on Thursday.

Nancy said, "I'm so glad to hear your voice. Can you 
stop by Saturday so we could talk?"

I asked, "What about Friday?"

I wanted to verify this meeting. She said, "I would 
love to but I've got to go to a mandatory meeting and 
won't get out till late.

I said, "Nancy, I love you. I just wanted you to know."

"I love you, too, Jim. Please come by Saturday. 
Please," she cried.

"I'll be there, guaranteed!" I replied. "I'm not going 
to fuck up this time," I thought to myself.

Thursday night was horrible. I was having dreams or 
nightmares. I dreamt I showed up at the restaurant and 
Nancy was sitting on a couch between two men. She was 
half drunk and had her dress pulled down over her tits, 
and the bottom pulled up to her waist. She had her 
panties off and her brown bush on display for whoever 
wanted to look. The two men had their lips on her tits 
and their hands on her thighs pushing them up toward 
her pussy.

One guy slipped a couple of fingers into her waiting 
cunt. She had both of her hands around their hard 
cocks, saying, "Give these to me, please give these to 
me." One guy said, "What about your husband? He's 
standing there watching you?"

She said, "I don't care, he left me and I need cock 
now. Please push it in." With that said one guy got 
down and slowly shoved his cock deep into my wife's 
waiting pussy. As she was moaning,. the other guy 
climbed up at her chest and told her he wanted her to 
take his cock into her mouth.

She replied she didn't like to give blow jobs. He just 
told her no blow jobs, no cock in your pussy. With that 
said she took him in her mouth. The guy in her pussy 
came so the one in her mouth removed his cock and 
slammed it into her pussy. She kept yelling for more.

Then an Asian and a Porto Rican came over and took a 
turn. They had her completely naked now lying on the 
couch while anyone who wanted to could have her. 

I just stood there and watched all these men take a 
turn fucking my wife. She had cum all over her body, 
her tits were covered and her bush looked a sticky 
white. Then the black busboy came out to clear the 
tables and asked if he could fuck her? She looked at 
him and said, "Put that black rod in me if you want. I 
don't care if you make me pregnant."

In this dream I had my cock in my hand and when this 
black man came in my wife's pussy I exploded cum all 
over the floor with all the bosses laughing at me.

I woke up in a deep sweat and noticed I just came all 
over the sheets. My God, I was glad it was a fantasy. 
If that really happened, I'd never be able to handle 
it. Somebody would die. How can any man just give his 
wife away like that? What would a woman really think of 
a husband who let her live out fantasies like that. 
There sure couldn't be love there. It would be just a 
raw sex marriage. Well, I guess to each his own. It 
won't happen in my marriage. I have too much love and 
respect for Nancy to see her turn into a slut. I would 
make sure I would be at the restaurant tomorrow.

It was now Friday and a very busy day at the store. I 
had trouble keeping my mind on business. I wanted to go 
see Nancy and tell her everything would be all right. 
I'd be there to protect her. I called her office three 
times and her bosses said she was in meetings or out. 
Damn it, I would have to wait till tonight unless she 
returned my calls.

I asked Milton, one of my employees if he could work 
the rest of the day today and also Saturday all day. I 
wouldn't be in. He said there would be no problem. He 
was a good employee. I told him I would send my sons 
over to help him that evening and Saturday. 

I went to the mall to see Nancy. The receptionist said 
the bosses were out and wouldn't be in until Monday. 
They had some district meeting to attend and then 
another meeting for just their store management 
tonight. She said I could leave a message and she would 
be sure Nancy would get it. 

I just told her I would call Nancy Monday. I didn't 
want to raise any suspicions. She was just the office 
girl. I know she wasn't part of this plan against 
Nancy. 

I went out to the floor and found Pam. She was a little 
nicer to me this time. She said she spoke to Nancy 
before she left for the meeting. She was so happy that 
I was going to see her Saturday.

I asked how she looked and was feeling. 

Pam looked at me and said this is both good and bad. 
She said Nancy was feeling much better since seeing the 
doctor. She was getting back to being her old self.

I said, so what's so bad about that?

Pam looked at me and said, "She looked fantastic! She 
had a low cut black mini dress on. She looked hot. 
Every guy would want her. Thank God we have a few 
bosses with brains. Only her bosses Edward and Ryan are 
going to make a play for her. The rest of the guys 
didn't want to mess up their own lives or Nancy's. They 
really like her as a person. You do have to understand 
this is grapevine information, maybe true, maybe rumor. 
Only problem is Ed and Ryan are the big bosses so no 
one will probably go against them." 

I thanked Pam for the information and told her what a 
true friend she really was and thanks for getting me to 
take my head out of my ass and do what is right.

Pam just looked at me and said, "You two were made to 
be together. I don't want anyone to mess that up. You 
both are really my best friends." Then she said her 
boyfriend Ray was pretty special too.

I went home to my apartment and cleaned up a little. I 
would be going to a fancy restaurant and at least had 
to dress up some so I could get in. I put on a pair of 
Docker's and a sports blazer. I wasn't a tie wearing 
sort of guy. I was a hardware store owner. I called my 
sons and asked them about working that night and 
Saturday. They just said no problem dad, just tell 
Milton we'll be there to help him.

It was now 8:30pm and I headed into the store. Milton 
had my sons stocking shelves. They were good workers 
even if they were my sons. This store might be theirs 
someday. That would be kind of a dad's dream. Having 
your sons taking over the family business. I turned to 
Milton and asked him to give me a roll of nickels. He 
looked at me kind of strange but handed me the roll. I 
then left the store.

I was on my way to the restaurant. 

***

I left for the restaurant.

As I entered the main dining area I was surprised to 
see Pam and Ray sitting there eating dinner. Pam smiled 
at me and said, "We may not be in the private dining 
area but we're as close as we could get."

She mentioned, "A lot of the bosses are starting to 
leave. I haven't seen Nancy, Ed, or Ryan yet."

Pam asked her supervisor when she came out, "Have you 
seen Nancy?" 

The supervisor said, "Ed and Ryan wanted to speak with 
her privately and asked her to please wait." Then her 
supervisor left.

That was the first time I really saw Ray close up. He 
was a big guy, maybe 6'2" over the 210 pound mark. He 
just mentioned that if I needed anything he would be 
there to help. I thanked him for his support and then 
headed for the kitchen. That was another way into the 
reserved room, through the kitchen.

When I got to the entrance of to the reserved room and 
the kitchen I just stood there a few minutes. I didn't 
want to barge in if there wasn't a problem. A black 
busboy came up to me and said, "Sir, you're not allowed 
in here."

I shuddered for a moment remembering the dream from the 
night before. I handed him ten dollars and said I'd 
only be a few minutes. He accepted it and looked 
through the door to see what I was staring at. 

He saw Nancy and said, "What a beautiful woman she is. 
But I feel sorry for her because I could tell that the 
two men in the room were throwing unwanted advances 
toward her the whole evening and I knew she was not 
comfortable with it."

I told him, "I'm here to put a stop to it but I had to 
pick my time."

The busboy just smiled at me and said, "I like men like 
you that don't take shit from guys like those two 
pricks."

He went back into the kitchen to do his work. I just 
stood at the door biding my time. 

Then it started. Ed said, "Have another drink, Nancy, 
Ryan and I have been waiting for this day."

Nancy said, "Please let me go, Ed. If you let me leave 
now, I won't tell anyone what went on. Please let me 
go."

Ed said, "Take the damn drink, Nancy, I'm your boss and 
you will do what you're told."

At that moment there was a knock on the front door. A 
Matre'D asked to speak to Ryan. He told him that his 
car alarm was going off and that his front window was 
busted. He needed to turn off the car alarm. Ryan left 
the room and went to see about his Mercedes.

Nancy took the drink and threw it in Ed's face.

"You fucking slut," Ed replied. "You've been teasing me 
with that ass of yours for too long now. It's time to 
pay the piper. You don't have that no account 
girlfriend and wimp husband to protect you now," as he 
reached down under her dress to grab her pussy."

That's when I reached into my pocket and grabbed my 
roll of nickels and barged through the door. Nancy 
turned around quickly and yelled, "Jim!"

Ed turned around and I said to him, "Nancy's no account 
wimp husband is about to kick your ass," as I hit him 
with my fist with the roll of nickels in it. I broke 
his nose on contact and maybe even his jaw. There were 
nickels flying everywhere. Ed fell to the floor and 
then Ryan came running back into the room.

Ryan yelled at me saying, "I'll sue you for every damn 
thing you own. I'll own that hardware store of yours."

Just as I approached him and was about to flatten him 
out also. Nancy said, "Wait, Jim. I have something 
better."

Ryan and I both looked at her as she pulled out a tape 
recorder and played just a snippet for us. Then she 
said, "We'll see who wins their lawsuit. I'll be filing 
my sexual harassment charges on Monday." 

Nancy then said to Ryan and Ed who was still lying on 
the floor, "The only reason I put up with your shit 
tonight is so I could have it on tape. Maybe, just 
maybe, it might save another woman from your 
harassment. I'll see you in court," and then she kicked 
Ryan dead center in the balls. He screamed out as he 
fell to the floor to join Ed. 

Then Nancy yelled out, "You two are pathetic, nothing 
but a couple of pigs. You aren't man enough to carry my 
husband's jockstrap. Go fuck yourself or each other." 

I took Nancy by the arm and as we were walking toward 
the door, there were a number of people standing at the 
door watching the events that were unfolding. They 
started clapping for Nancy and I as we were leaving the 
restaurant. The busboy just smiled and gave me a high 
five.

Nancy and I walked out the front door hand in hand. 

Sitting in their car in front of the restaurant was Pam 
and Ray. They were both smiling as Pam got out to give 
Nancy a big hug. 

Ray looked at me and said, "As we were leaving, we 
heard a big commotion and a car alarm go off. We 
thought we would stick around a few minutes to see what 
was happening."

I looked at Ray and said, "Thank you."

He just said, "You're welcome."

After Pam and Ray left, Nancy and I headed for my car. 
Then I realized I hadn't said a word to her through all 
of this. I just stopped in my tracks and looked at 
Nancy and said, "You look beautiful. I'm the luckiest 
guy on God's green earth to have you. I'm so sorry for 
the way I acted. Please forgive me."

Nancy started crying and hugging me. She asked, "Are 
you going to take me home?"

I said, "Are you kidding? I'm not letting you out of my 
sight for the rest of this night. We'll send the boys 
after your car tomorrow. I think it will be pretty safe 
here for the night even though Ryan's Mercedes was 
damaged," and we both laughed.

When we got home we headed straight for the bedroom and 
locked the door. As Nancy was taking off her dress she 
looked at me and said, "What is it, Jim? What are you 
thinking?"

I said, "Honey, why did you dress so damn beautiful for 
those bastards?"

She looked at me and said, "I didn't dress for them. I 
dressed for you."

"What? I don't understand" I replied.

"Pam told me you would be there for me when I talked to 
her today." I just trusted that you would keep your 
promise to protect me. So I dressed for you. I wanted 
the other men to know what you have that they never 
would and to look good for you when you got there. The 
bastards just were lucky to be there until you 
arrived."

"God, Nancy, I love you so much." We both took off our 
clothes and lay on the bed. We kissed and hugged. I 
rubbed her all over her body. How I missed touching 
her. I got between her legs and started kissing her 
pussy. First gently then harder and harder. She spread 
her pussy lips so I could tongue fuck her. She was 
going wild. She climaxed all over my face. I didn't 
care. I wanted more of her. I kept pushing my face all 
over her hairy pussy like a madman. She grabbed the 
back of my head and held it against her pussy for what 
seems like minutes but was probably only a few seconds.

I rolled over on my back with my cock sticking straight 
up like a monument. I asked Nancy if she wanted to ride 
it. She smiled and grabbed my cock in her hand. She 
lowered her mouth around it and started sucking the 
head of my cock. I said, " Nancy, you don't have to do 
that." 

She pulled her lips off my cock and said, "I want to," 
as she lowered her glistening lips back down around the 
head of my cock. She was just sucking it like a 
lollipop, slow and easy. Pre-cum stringing down from 
her lips to my cock head. God, it was great. It wasn't 
a blow job, it was so much more erotic and sensual just 
watching her suck me.

Then she raised up and straddled my cock and slowly 
lowered herself down on it. She started to speed up and 
her tits were bouncing with her. She was riding me with 
everything she had. Her juices were flowing down over 
my cock. Then she stopped and pushed her pussy down on 
my cock, pushing down harder and harder until I shot 
everything I had up into her. She screamed out, "I love 
you, Jim, with all my heart," as she climaxed.

She rolled off of me, both of us in a total sweat. We 
just lay there together and fell asleep. I woke up 
sometime later and began rubbing her breasts. She had 
her back to me so I took my hardening cock and put it 
against her pussy from behind. She pushed her ass back 
until my cock slid into her pussy and we did a nice 
slow fuck. My cock sank into her every time I pushed 
forward. My pelvic area slamming against her ass. I 
shot another wad of cum into her pussy as I heard her 
moan. I fell asleep with my cock buried deep in her.

The next morning was Saturday and when we got up our 
sons had already left for work. I got up to use the 
bathroom then walked into the kitchen and read a note 
on the fridge. It said, "Welcome home, dad. We missed 
you." They signed it Jacob and David.

I was making coffee when Nancy came into the kitchen 
and saw the note. She picked up a pen and wrote the 
words, "Me too, Nancy" on the bottom of the note.

I grabbed her and kissed her. We sat down and talked a 
little over a cup of coffee. Then she got up to take a 
shower. When I thought she was about half done with her 
shower, I entered the bathroom. She asked me if I was 
going to wash her back.

I told her only if I could wash the front also. She 
smiled as I entered the shower. We haven't showered 
together for years. It was like a whole new experience. 
I grabbed a bar of soap and started rubbing her back 
and quickly worked my way down to her ass. I dropped 
the sponge and just used my soaped up hands and I went 
between her thighs and soaped up the area between her 
ass and pussy. 

I pulled her back to me and rubbed her breasts with the 
soap. I spent a few minutes on her nipples till they 
got hard. She was really feeling it. Then I heard her 
say the magic words, "Jim, please fuck me!" She didn't 
want love this time she wanted raw sex, and raw sex she 
got.

I leaned her forward with her hands against the wall 
and she spread her legs as much as possible and I 
slammed my hard cock into her wet soapy pussy. I said, 
"Is this what you want?"

She screamed out, "God, yes, fuck my pussy. I love it."

"Who do you want in this pussy?" We were really heating 
up now.

"You, honey, just you."

"Who else has had this pussy?" I was going into fantasy 
mode.

"No one, Jim, honest, only you."

"Do you fantasize about strange cocks in this pussy of 
yours." I knew I could ruin the mood but I couldn't 
help myself.

"Yes, Jim, I've never lied to you and I won't lie now. 
Yes, I have fantasized about strange cocks taking me. 
White, Black, Asian, I thought about all of them but no 
one but you will ever have me. I know now that you are 
all I'll ever want and all I'll ever need. Fuck me in 
the ass, Jim, take me now."

I had both of my hands on her hips as I pulled my cock 
out of her soaking wet pussy and put the head of my 
cock against her ass, the water of the shower beating 
down on both of us. 

I pushed the head of my cock into her anus. I got the 
head in, damn it was tight. Thank God for the soap and 
water running down the crack of her ass.

"More, Jim, push it in more. Give it all to me for 
having bad thoughts. Take your frustrations out on my 
ass, Jim."

I did just that. I pushed my cock all the way into her 
tight ass. I have never been in her all the way. It was 
so tight it actually was hurting my cock.

Nancy screamed out, "God, it hurts," as she was almost 
crying. 

I started to pull out but Nancy said, "Don't you dare 
pull it out. Just cum in me quickly, please."

I grabbed her by the hips and pushed my cock as deep as 
it would go into her anus till my balls were slapping 
against her pussy. When I came with a burst, I screamed 
out, "Oh, my God!" I let out one of the biggest loads 
ever deep into her ass. My cock quickly got soft and, 
as I pulled it out, we both heard her ass pop closed 
while my cum ran out of her anus and down her thighs.

She told me to get out of the shower so she could get 
cleaned up this time. I got out and went to get 
dressed. When she came into the bedroom after the 
shower she was walking very delicately. I looked at her 
and said I was sorry. She kissed me and said she 
deserved it for her past actions and thoughts. Then she 
smiled at me and said, "Don't expect it on a regular 
basis."

She looked at me and said, "What is it, Jim? What's 
bothering you?"

"You have done things last night and today that were 
out of this world. We have never had that kind of raw 
sex before. It was so fantastic, I shouldn't say this 
but I was wondering when and how you learn all this?"

"Honey, I have been going to the health club. All those 
women constantly talked about their lovers and what 
they do for them. How it makes their lovers feel. I 
fantasize too. I wondered what it would be like to be a 
slut and just have raw sex once in awhile. I was always 
afraid to tell you. I didn't want you to think of me as 
a slut but I needed to try. That was part of my 
confusion. I wanted to be a slut but only a slut for 
you."

"God, Nancy, I love you so much. I'll do anything 
sexually with you as long as it's just you and me. You 
are one fantastic woman. My lover, my slut, and my 
wife, I love all three of you," I said as I smiled. 

The rest of our weekend went great. Our sons helped me 
move back into our house and went to get their mother's 
car. When they got back, they said a black guy asked 
them what they were doing by the car. They said they 
told him that it was their mother's and came to 
retrieve it. They showed the black guy the car keys and 
he said it was okay. He was just watching over the car 
until it was picked up. He told our sons that they had 
a couple of swell parents. He loved the way they kicked 
ass and then gave them a high five. 

My sons then asked, "What happened, dad? We always miss 
the good stuff. The busboy also said to say ‘thank you' 
to you for the roll of nickels."

Nancy and I just laughed and said, "We always protect 
the ones we love."

I got up for work Monday morning. I dreaded leaving 
Nancy that day. It was like two lovers starting over. I 
had a lot of work to catch up on and Nancy went to see 
our lawyer. Once she played the tape of how Bob and Ed 
acted toward her all evening the lawyer said it was a 
slam dunk harassment case. She took a leave of absence 
till the harassment case was settled. 

Milton and I were interviewing applicants for the 
bookkeeping position. No one seemed quite right. Then 
Milton came into the office and said he just 
interviewed the perfect person for the job and told her 
she could start the next day.

I said, "What? You just hired someone without even 
asking me? My God, Milton, I can't believe you would do 
such a thing. I'm sorry but I have to talk to her 
first. Please send her in."

I looked up at the door and in walked Nancy. She looked 
at me and said, "I have all the qualifications and I 
can give you a lot of side benefits that no one else 
can. Do I get the job?"

I just looked up at her, kissed her and said, "Life is 
great."

Nancy went back to the doctors about a month later like 
she was asked. The doctor talked with her and said how 
happy she felt for her. She has her hormones under 
control and leaving the previous job took away a lot of 
the stress. The doctor was so glad that Nancy and I 
were able to work things out. But now Nancy has a 
another problem. Since she was off the birth control 
pills she was now pregnant. Nancy went into some kind 
of shock, she was happy but crying. She didn't know how 
I would react.

When Nancy came back to the store. She looked at me and 
said, "Jim, do you love me."

"Of course I love you. How could you ask such a stupid 
question? Do you have another problem? I'll stand 
beside you, I'll be your rock. Please tell me Nancy. 
I'm here for you."

With tears in her eyes she said, "Jim, I'm pregnant and 
I want our baby."

"When? How? What happened?" I asked. All stupid 
questions.

Nancy looked at me with a half smile. "When? On our 
renewed love for each other. How? We made passionate 
love to each other. What happened? I got pregnant with 
our love child."

"Yes," I screamed out, "Yes, I want our baby." We both 
started crying. "I'm going to be a daddy again" I 
cried.


Epilog:

It's been nine months since all the problems took 
place. We are now the proud parents of a beautiful baby 
girl who looks just like her mother. Nancy brings 
Pamela (our baby) to the store with her. We named her 
after Pam since she helped save our marriage. Nancy has 
been a wiz with the bookkeeping. I might have to start 
paying her. She does the books so she can just pay her 
self if she likes.

Our lawyers got back to us and the store where Nancy 
worked decided to settle out of court after hearing 
Nancy's tape. We got a six digit settlement. Enough to 
put all three of our kids through college if they 
decide to go. 

Ryan and Edward were both fired. The store found out 
that wasn't the first time it had happened with them. 
After Nancy came forward, so did a number of other 
girls. They all called Nancy and thanked her. They were 
glad to get rid of the burdens they were carrying.

It looks like Pamela and Ray are going to get hitched 
this coming summer. We all hang around together. We're 
really happy for them.

Darrell, the black busboy is now our favorite waiter at 
the restaurant.

A couple of other little things. Nancy's doctor made 
sure that Nancy had a normal weight gain during the 
pregnancy. As far as sex and love, we have a lot of 
both. We made love within days of the delivery. Damn, I 
never realized how sexy and glowing a pregnant woman 
could be.

As Nancy says, to have and to hold, during sickness, or 
health, during rich times and poor. Love your spouse 
and don't lie to them. This is what our marriage is 
based on. "Life is Great"